Dear 'N',

I didn’t want to talk about it till now, I didn’t want you to know. But I think I should let you know how things went for me for past few days.

Yes, A’s ex got back. My intuitions were very much right. I know he would never be able to tell me what actually happened that suddenly she came back. He too, loved me so much. I don’t have any complaints against him, I never did. He will always be my angel from above.
He stopped communicating with me after I discovered his ex was unblocked and commented on one of his photos. I know it is a very difficult situation for him. On one hand, he proposed me to get married with him and on other, his GF of 7 years came back with whom he always wanted to spend the rest of his life. And he told me he knows what is right for him but he feels like his everything lies there with her.
The 'A' I know is a very generous guy. Wouldn’t do anything to hurt anybody at all. At least not intentionally. So I know, he was hanging in the middle, confused. How to tell me that he wants her as he already proposed me and my family knows about us? He couldn’t. So he started avoiding me. I kept texting him, calling him- asking for an answer. Yes or No? I wouldn’t have cared a bit but you know, I had people waiting for my answer. I specially emphasized on this point because that’s the hardest part for me, it’s a humiliation to be honest.
No calls, no answers.

So I had to make the decision myself. I had to walk out. Because I know what he wants, what he wanted for 7 years and finally when he got his happiness, I couldn’t stand in between. I couldn’t be that cruel.

Yes. I wanted to snatch him away from her. I wanted to use all I could in my power to get him for myself. But I couldn’t be selfish. I truly love him. And I want him to be happy, no matter what it costs me.
I had to tell you all these because this book was opened at your presence. And it should be closed the same way as well.

I don’t know if 'A' told you these already. If you ever get to talk about this with him, please do not let him misunderstand me. After all, wouldn’t you have done the same for the person you truly love?

I didn’t say goodbye to him. I couldn’t actually as he stopped communicating. Good in a way, our last goodbye will never be said. Memories will be frozen as good ones. That’s all I’ve got to live with now.

I wish these were only a nightmare; I wish I could wake up and see them gone. Everything is alright, perfectly fallen in their places.

But life must go on.

Please continue supporting him in every possible way, guard him like a guardian angel and keep him under your wings. I don’t know why, but I trust you. I’ll leave him at your care. And thanks again for all you’ve done for us. Without you I never have gotten to know there is someone out there who can love me so much. It will be my strength forever.

I got to live my whole life in that one year, trust me. I’m one lucky girl.

This is where I’ll leave you today. I wish you well.



- 'S'