its been so many days that I last translated some of my thoughts!!!
I feel that everyday I am changing ; I am looking into things in a different perspective ; I am so much different from the one I used to be, even 1 year back!!!
Recently someone told me that, it required 2000 million tk for changing the name of our international airport ; i was sooo upset ; it was not from her pocket money after all .. Off course I don't really know if it is the truth , i stopped reading newspaper long ago, as it made me so upset and so angry and consequently a rise in my blood pressure
The only thing comes to my mind when I think of the two biggest humbugs in my country, is "মাতারি" ; even though I am completely unaware of the meaning of this word.

aargh....I want to forget those... I want to write something pleasant...I want to write how I feel about everything... I am so thankful to everyone and everything on earth , how wonderful it is of them to make my life so beautiful ! the cockroaches are a dirty exception, off course!!!!
Thank you so much my Creator, for blessing me with everything I have...
I feel so euphoric nowadays , without any particular reason , sometimes it gives me fright, am I going insane or what :-s ...its not good to feel sad or happy for nothing ...
I have a confession though , I am not entirely euphoric with everything. my hubby is going Bali for a conference. well, I did went Bali with him, it was a beautiful place and we had a great time there. Usually, we don't repeat the places for a tour. but it's a conference off course, and he must go. now, he asked me 2-3 times, if I wanna go with him , and I don't know what got into me and why everytime I said, "No. we've already been there, I'd rather visit a new place with you". Now I want to go with him terribly, but I won't tell him. I expected so much that he would take me with him, he would understand how much I love to travel ; but I know, he would never understand it , he is not a girl after all , how is he supposed to know , I meant 'yes', when I said 'no' repeatedly ?
I couldn't figure it out, why I did this ; perhaps just to prove that I am a foolish girl, the fault is entirely mine, and I am upset......
but for a moment or two only, then I feel euphoric again!!!
may be its a psychological disorder, but I love living with it