hello, frds this is orni.. My lyf story begins lyk this...



I was born in Chittagong in 3rd January, 1987, was one n only child of my parent for 7.5yrs... admitted into a English Medium School In Chittagong , named Summerfields' Tutorial. As because, my parents both are doctors and they work very hard,in a rush as always... for patients.. They didnt give that much tym which other girls of my same age, used to get 4m their parents.. That was a reason of my frustration. I used to call one of our House maid, as "Moo", who was taking care of me since my 2months age to 10.5 yrs of my age.. Whenever I talk with her by phone or see her in her village, I used to get emotional because she had set an example of motherly affection, which I still miss some tyms..I started my singing by a singing teacher who taught me some basic about singing when i was only 4yrs old.I got a bicycle after I stood first in my class.. I started riding bicycle behind my house @ 6yrs of my age, which was a hilly area...I dnt knw what happens to me now that I cudnt concentrate that much which I usually can in my earlier ages of lyf..May b I want the same concentration from my parents which I usually get when I was in my childhood bcoz of getting 1st-3rd position in each n every class n I dnt have any siblings... May b I am jealous.. Yes, I am .. I am a human being, not a super human...



........After that my parents shifted to Feni, where I had to live for 3more yrs, that was an under privileged area for sure..It was hard for me to adjust in a place lyk feni after leaving Chittagong... I got some frds over there, n began to adjust myself...I studied there for 3yrs n my parents leave feni, bcoz there was no good school for me n my brother, who was such an age of getting admitted into a school...Bt I enjoyed those days.. bcoz of 'Moo', my frds, my very good academic performance over there, where I got 2scholarships( private funding) in cls 4 & 5.N also In cls 5 , I have got the govt scholarship.. which was a good sign of my improvement over there.. I also missed my singing teacher in feni.. art teacher... and shishu academy (government org to teach children, extracurricular activities ).... there I have completed some course of singing , art - oil painting, pencil sketch, water color, some wax colours..and also get some completion certificates and awards in the competitions of Children's competition among districts.. take part in Nutun kuri's event for singing Tagor's song and stood first among chittagong... that was the first tym, i went to chittagong after we leave chittagong n come to feni...



.............after i started cls 6... I came to dhk in May,1999...went to the Ispahani school for 6months, Bcoz it was the middle of the yr.. I cant b admitted into a school b4 taking part any admission test... I took part in admission test for Dhanmondi,VNSC in class 7 n got da 2nd position in dat test , while they were taking around 40 students bcoz they were creating more sections in dhanmindi branch in 2000... my journey of VNSC started from 2000 and ended at 2004 by giving SSC and college as well @Baily road ended @ 2006 by giving HSC from there..Then I got admitted into medical college, which was a nightmare for me..better not to talk about it... it happened only bcoz of my parents.. i never wanted to be a doctor before.. they knew dat, bt bcoz of their restricted religious n colonial mentality, which was inevitable for a girl of 18yrs that tym..I had completed my med school with a grief of supplementaries, bcoz there was no 'ME' there.. just an upper shell goin 2 da class everyday with mother(She is still working as an Asso. prof of gyneacology & obstetrics).. I used to hear 4m others that u passed .. oh,, ur mother is a teacher here,oh ur parents r doctors... datz y...as I stay so silent in class, they thought so..If I passed itz bcoz of mother.. if I failed itz ur fault.. they have to knw that our teachers r not that stupid to pass me without a minimum knowledge... if they r passing me only bcoz they r my parents' frds, then may I knw why I need to giv supplies that much...n plz dnt ask me about politics in medical.. i hate dat 1, datz 4 sure...



Anyways I dnt lyk medical/ clinical jobs.. itz not my cup of tea.. I did that for themselves, who gave me birth, n I took that pain for 5-6yrs, if they didnt bcum violent, may b I didnt chose dat way..it happened only because my parents forced me to study med school..Now, i switch myself 4m that area of academic career.. want to do it in my own way.. my lyf my way... (Y)



Now im doin MPH in JPGSPH, BRACU... dnt knw whether it will bring me my goals closer to my doorsteps or not...letz c what happens nxt....





Oh! n about marriage... cudnt even think about it until I got settled in my lyf in my own terms .. yeah.. I am highly ambitious.. i dnt even care about what society think of me.. my b a paranoid/ lunatic...I dnt care bcoz do they care when I will b hungry n sleep unfed?? when my children will sleep unfed, will they bother??? How many yrs do they fed me without any work!!! I knw these ppl.. while I suffer.. no1 come to say a hello... when I got awards they come up with gifts (while I dnt need any help)... while my mother is serving the labour patients in hospital n I am sleeping alone unfed, did they come to feed me??? never.. thatz what I experienced since my birth...They can only talk a lot.. unnecessary talks.. where I society..Society is a concept of our mind, we dnt need to enslave da process of our society..I am not here to fulfill/ please our society, we made our society to give us security, help, frds as well as unity... r they providing so!! ask ur mind????



So, I decided to get established b4 I turn into lyf into any kind of major events of my lyf lyk marriage.. U knw what this society dnt even bother whether I want to get married or not.... it seems lyk they will go throu my family business..I must say ' mind ur own business'... nobody will help u when u really in need of it in this corrupted place lyk Dhk..



I am planning to leave dhk as soon as possible.. not sure whether I cud make it or not...some offer letter came 4m other countries .... waiting 4 scholarship...I wont say u to pray 4 me.. I must say..I will make my own way.. dnt bother me plz bcoz of ur traditional belief..I wont b a blockage of ur road until u block mine.. so stay away, b safe..



oh abt religion.. at first I was lyk praying 5times, doin hijab in my early teenage lyk 13-15yrs of my age.. what I experienced here in my short span of lyf ... changed my point of view to c the world... may b I am thinking out of da box... bt i must add, if u were me , u wud have suicide until now... so, dnt judge others without knwing them..n forcing others to marry/ to be religious cudnt help here in this era of twenty first century..