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আমার ভালবাসার কাহিনী-১
আমার ভালবাসার কাহিনী-২
আমার ভালবাসার কাহিনী-৩
আমার ভালবাসার কাহিনী-৪
আমার ভালবাসার কাহিনী-৫
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আমার ভালবাসার কাহিনী-৭

Today I want to say ........... my life/love story.
so please read patiently & carefully..........


তোমাকেই বলছি ..........................

Saturday Evening
You know.........i never met much people around me who could be in harmony with me in all respect......who could really understand me fully......could perceive me. I always give preference to the level of good intelligence. I found u in harmony with me. its not a thing that I can discover over night. I found it in u gradually. Things really clicked between us. Being with you had been like being beyond the time. And I was so surprised seeing that whatever I say..........and however I say.......u always understand. How do u do that? U must have been watching, realizing me for long time ....ha ha ha!!! Anyway........that was amazing for me. U know.......your smile..........the gestures.........are like a little kid. It was so difficult to resist. I guess I never could comprehend what I was for you. I accept. That's my failure. And there I have done so much injustice to you. you were hurt tremendously. What else can I say to u in this regard apart from asking you to forgive me if you can.


Coming to Net was probably a big mistake for me. The time probably has decided to teach me a lesson!!!! Its really very difficult to achieve a good character, good reputation, goodwill. And it is yet further more difficult to gain self respect, sense of honour and dignity. But to destroy.......u need only a small effort. Every MAN seeks for all these attributes to make him complete. I was none of the exception. But unfortunately......this short stay in Net has completely broken me down. I have lost Three fundamental things of my life. FAITH, LOVE, THE GOOD NAME AND SELF RESPECT. Loosing all these three means loosing everything.......coz all others are the secondary attributes. I have lowered myself to the bottom. I am not a gentleman. I have lost all my good qualities.......i'm no more a good man. U will never be able to respect me the way u used to respect. u will always look at me with hatred and disbelief. When I think of all those, I feel like to kill myself. (you).......i am really very bad. I have lost all my good soft feelings, pure heart, pure look, honest words.......everything. I have spoiled myself completely. No good and decency works in me anymore. no more I can see the aesthetic beauty. Living seems hell. why.. do you know.......? she returned to God and you didn't take me............you want to hurt me............. why ..... why...

to be continued...............